Another Year Older

Today we're having G's family over to celebrate my birthday, which was actually on June 15th but last weekend we celebrated it with my family. So today is a day of cleaning the house and getting things ready for them to come over. It should be a good day, weather seems to be good so far so we may just be able to have it outside yay!

So another year older and no closer to our dream. I have to say that since TTC, the years have just flown by. Makes me sad, I always wanted to have a baby by 30 but that's just not the case. Here's to hoping that this will be our year so I don't have to go through another childless birthday.

The nurse at ORM finally got back to me yesterday. She said that they don't feel they need to do anything at this time with the 3cm endometrioma that I have on my right ovary. She also got the Doppler results and said that my levels are a little higher then they would like to see - they would prefer to have them below 3 and my levels are 3.94 on the right and 3.2 on the left. Consequently, they would like me to do some acupuncture prior to my cycle. I'll have to ask but I'm not too sure if they want that done before the mock cycle or just for actual cycle. Just another appointment that I have to fill my already busy days...

I'm really overwhelmed with things and now to top it off I only have 4 more days of BCP before I to make a decision to do the mock cycle this coming month or next month. A part of me wants to just get it over with but the other part of me just needs a break; or it could be that I'm secretly freaked right out of the Delestrogen shot I have to do on cycle day 2 and every third day after that. I've never done intramuscular shots before.

Well I'm off to help G get things ready for my birthday party.

Happy IComLeavWe!!

It's that time again, Happy IComLeavWe!! This is my second time joining ICLW and I'm so glad I did!!

Not too much is new, still on BCP - I think I have 9 more days to go - then I think I may start the mock cycle. I'm not too sure though, I've just been feeling kind of off lately. My stomach hasn't been feeling well for the pat 2 weeks, I think it's all the stress that I've been under with my work, my Dad and all this. Hopefully I feel better before finish my pills or I may just wait until next month. :(

Oh and I was able to get my Delestrogen last week, thank goodness!! Early Wednesday morning I went to Customs to get my FedEx release form signed. I was so scared that they wouldn't release it but much to my surprise I actually got a lady with a heart - there is an angle above!! She looked at it and knew right away what it was for and stamped it, I was so shocked. She told me that she tried for 8 years and finally at age 40 she had twins through IVF. I cried, I just couldn't help it. It was the first thing that had actually gone smooth. She gave me her card and said to call when we have more meds come through and she wished me luck and said not to give up. I was so touched. I'm so glad I met her, it made having to go through all that crap with FedEx worth it.

I had my Doppler U/S on Friday, it went well I think but they had no idea what the US clinic was looking for so I was there for like an hour and a half. The only unfortunate part was that my one and only right ovary has a 3cm Endometrioma. I put in a call to the US clinic to see what they want to do about it. I would really like for the clinic here to drain it so it doesn't burst and create more problems but I guess I'll just have to wait and see.

Its The Little Things That Make Me Happy...

YAYYY!!! I got myself a signature thanks to Jen, thanks Jen!!

Now, if anyone knows how to get the rolling labels (I think that's what you would call it) I think I should be set!!

Thanks again Jen

Just Another Crazy Weekend.

WOW!! I haven't be able to get on here in awhile - super busy, but what else is new - and I log in today to find that I have 18 followers and 1468 page views... that's crazy!! Thanks for taking the time to read my blog but please excuse the bad punctuation and grammar.

I never thought I'd ever be writing my thoughts down like this but I'm glad I did because with your support and the support of IVF.ca it's made my struggles with infertility, and now my dads battle with cancer, a lot easier to handle. Thanks everyone!!

The weekend went by very quick, yet again! G and I had our appointment with the psychologist at RFP Saturday morning. I think it went really well and I really enjoyed the conversation we had with the psychologist. That's another thing checked off our list for ORM. Yay!!

Good thing I decided to do the mock cycle for ORM next month because early Saturday morning, just before we get to RFP for our psych consult, I get a call from FedEx saying that their unable to release the Delestrogen to customs... what!?!?! The guy said that he looked on the Health Canada website and the drug has been recalled in Canada- I can't seem to find that documentation anywhere - and that it has many warnings with lots of bad side affects... well of course it has warnings and affects, it's a frickin drug for gosh sakes!!! Luckily I was on my way to RFP because I was able to get them to write up a letter so that - hopefully - the drug can be release but now I'm waiting to hear back from FedEx. Fun times!! Has this happened to any of you Canadian gals?

Friday I go for the Doppler U/S then it's the mock cycle next month and then we're off to the races, providing we find a donor soon.

A Little Catch Up

Just a quick post to catch up a little. Sorry I've been MIA. Things have been so crazy busy I just haven't had time to write. :( I miss you all though!!

So I had my Hysteroscopy and Endo Biopsy on May 24th - wasn't as bad as I thought it'd be - and I just got the results from ORM today. They said that everything looked great... Phew! AF also showed up today so I told the nurse at ORM who then says that we can start the mock cycle... YEAH?!? Well, it would be great but they want me on Delestrogen which we don't have here in Canada; which means I would have to get it shipped here but it would have to be here in 2 days because I'm to start the shots on day 3. I sent an e-mail asking if I could be put on the patches instead, I guess I'll wait to here from the nurse tomorrow and if they're OK with that then were on our way. If not I guess we could be moved up to next month which would suck but what ever.

Last Monday I went to my dads chemo with him. It was really nice to spend that alone time with him and to see what all goes on when he goes for his sessions. We went there for 9:00am for blood work then waited around to talk with the doctor  and so he can see how he's been doing. Then we went outside and had lunch - it was nice to get out of the hospital for a bit. Then we went back in and waited for his chemo which was suppose to be at 1:00pm but he didn't end up getting it until 3:00, so we didn't get out of there until 6:00. It was a long day but I wouldn't have changed it for the world... well, minus the part where my dad has to get chemo. I really enjoyed spending the time with him.

Next CT scan is booked for July 12th. I pray that the results are good.