DE IVF #1 - It Didn't Work...

I would have posted sooner but this weekend really was the shittiest weekend ever!!

Thursday we had our second ultrasound at 7 weeks 4 days to see if we could see anything this time. It turns out that the sac grew a little but still reading a week behind and still nothing inside, not even a speck. So the nurse called me later that day and told me to stop all meds and that Dr H would prefer me to have a natural miscarriage rather than a D&C because of possible scaring that it could cause.

Now I wait the dreaded wait. He said it could happen anywhere from 2 days to 2 weeks and that if it hasn't happened within 2 weeks to give him a call and he'll prescribe some meds to help it along. This just really sucks, I thought for sure that DE would result in a pregnancy the first time. I guess I was wrong but on the bright side of things I guess it's good to know that I can at least get pregnant, if that's what you want to call a blighted ovum.

Now I know that it's just a sac that I have to expel but I'm absolutely terrified of having to naturally miscarry.  My period at the best of times is excruciating because of my endometriosis, I can't imagine how it's going to be now. I've been trying to read stories on the Internet and they sound pretty painful.

Then to top off my oh so wonderful long weekend, on Thursday G tells me that his sister and his cousin are both pregnant. I'm happy for his sister but it really couldn't have come at a worst time. Now I have to some how find it in me to congratulate her. I am absolutely devastated this didn't work.

The plan is that we're hoping to do a FET sometime in January or February 2012.

Thanks so everyone for your wonderful support.